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Wednesday, March 24, 2010,11:04 PM

emotionless..

because i don't know what to feel..

heartbroken?

angry?

disappointed?

dumb?

relieved?

should i cry?

scream?

shout?

make a big fuss?

i wanna puke!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010,12:49 AM

i did not shed a tear..

i feel numb..

Thursday, March 11, 2010,11:18 PM

in frankfurt nown feelin very sorry for myself..

with my scalded hands..

i know i sounded damn stupid and bimbotic..

i seriosuly think i scalded myself while huggin my hot water bottle to sleep..

because i was so cold.. i didn't realise it was burnin me..

can u imagine how cold am i??

ricky and i went to buy a chinchilla and we named her "bunnie".. =)

she is such a cute little thing.. damn active..

and ricky complains to me that she shits all around his room.. *haahahaaa*

ricky loves her so..

treats her like a precious baby..

=)

that day i met k.. & he passed me afew stuffs he bought for me..

i asked him directly "ni shi bu shi yao zhui wo?" and rejected him 10minutes later..

i don't want to let him think i like him and continue acceptin his gifts..

anyway he was sweet enough to still sms me to ask if i passed my basic..

but i guess i won't hear from him anymore..

the difference between a 1yr and 10yr friendship..

elaine: he looks not bad what.. from the way u describe i thought he is ugly.. okie lar.. go out with him lar..

pea: he is not your type..

hahhahahaaa~

pea says she got no friends she think i will like de to intro to me..

stupid ed wanna intro me de friend, i am not interested..

suddenly i feel like 35 instead of 25..

why da jia all scare i jia bu chu qu..?!?!?! =(

i am finally goin to get my BB this sun! =D

nor says she will help me to set everythin..

can't wait to be back~

datz all~

*muackz*

life is almost perfect!

** not angry just disappointed.. but just two drops of tears this time.. =)

i will continue to do so till i am numb..

yesh.. i am just a stubborn little cow..

Sunday, March 07, 2010,1:36 AM

i am beginnin to wonder if we really still love each other or we just need some gettin used to with others..

if he did not treat me the way i want to be treated.. would i still love him..

i doubt so, if u asked me..

does it mean i actually don't really love him..

but if u think about it.. i am just like any normal girl right..

would u love your bf alot if he wasn't good to u..?

would u stay by him if he wasn't nice and sweet to u..?

i was supposed to meet k today..

he asked me out 3 weeks ago already..

i last minute fly him aeroplane because ricky asked me to meet..

i know i am such a bitch..

no wonder nor once said i don't know what is love..

she also said alot of things.. & now i'm beginnin to think what she said is true..

i am also wonderin if we are really what each other wanted..

ricky said before he has always been givin in to me all the while..

maybe its not love..

he is just being stubborn and unwillin to accept the fact that i am just like that.. the ego thingy in him.. thus makin life difficult for himself all this while..

he can easily find someone who is less demandin and treats him better and be happy with her..

maybe we are not that suitable afterall..

we are just reluctant to let go..

finally he admitted defeat..

he can't change me..

we broke up..

but now we are in this unknown status which i don't know how long it will last..

i believe alot of couples who had been together for many years already, go through this post break up grey area thingy like us bah..

one day everythin will pass.. we will happily be with someone else..

& i will always remember you because u are a significant person in my life..

i am lucky to have met u..

to have u accompany me through a large part of my journey, even though its not till the end..

=)

datz all~

*muackz*

p.s. nono.. nothin happened.. in fact i had so much laughter watchin the shows he recorded down.. the day ended well.. =)

its just that alot of if's and maybe's came to my mind..

Monday, March 01, 2010,12:21 AM

mummy accompanied me to the doctor today..

the trip to the doctor did some damage to her pocket..

because she bought me 3 bottles of concentrated bird's nest!! =D

last time ricky used to buy bird's nest for me..

& i only allowed him 1 mouthful..

if he bought 2 bottles.. i'll quickly finish mine and snatched his..*haaahaa*

those were the days..

=)

i wanna go sentosa..

there are so much changes to it recently..

elaine only wanna go casino.. another gamblin ghost in my life.. *haahaaa*

wanna go universal studio..

jw~! when are u backkkkk..

i guess he is the only one who will accompany me on those rides..

sillies say they can go take pictures for me.. but make it clear will NOT take the rides with me.. will not be psycho-ed by me once again.. =X

even ky surrendered le.. =(

my eye is red.. got 3days mc..

quite happy actually.. *hee*

datz all~

*munchin ba kwa in progress*

*muackz*

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YY aka birdie aka black blur bird (by NOR & PEA)
16 Dec 1985

greedy.. petty.. predictable yet unpredictable.. fickle minded.. lazy.. a glutton.. insensitive.. overly optimistic.. noisy.. stubborn.. ridiculously unreasonable.. do whatever i feel like doin.. speaks whatever that comes to my mind.. this is ME..

Loves

her family (mummy & 2 brothers) + her beloved drinkin cousins =P
her friends
her sillies & karmaR-ing with them =P
food
freedom
spendin $$
nua-ing
playin mahjong
havin fun
travellin
watchin movies
daydreamin
surprises
bullyin hui aka pea together with nor =P =p =P

i wish i wish i wish..

lose 4kg!!
hair to grow long
watch an indian movie *keke*
a new chio chio danglin stud for my belly
skydiving
donate blood
visit an orphanage
buy mummy an expensive watch for her this year's birthday
go Korea with sillies
go Hawaii
go Las Vegas
visit the Six Flags Magic Mountain theme park in LA

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